HCB Chapter 140 - Section 140
Chapter 140 - Section 140
"I personally don't have a very good evaluation of myself, which is probably because of the 16 years of life in my previous life and this life."
Amamiya Ren first stabilized Shinomiya Kaguya's emotions, and then began to talk about her own affairs.
"In my previous life, I was just an ordinary person. My appearance and height should be at the level of ordinary people."
"My mother often said that I was very cute when I was a child. She even took wedding photos of me when I was a child, but I can't see where I was cute."
"In junior high school, high school, and college, I was the one who was easy to bully, so I wouldn't cause trouble for myself, otherwise I would be the one bullied."
"After leaving college and entering society, I didn't have any so-called special skills. I was not good at studying, and my ability was not enough. In addition, I didn't like to talk."
"At that time, there was almost no status for introverts like me in society, so I stayed at home."
"Although I stayed at home, I still developed an interest in writing some erotic novels in school during those years of study."
"I thought about writing novels."
"Then I went on this path."
Amamiya Ren couldn't help but miss her former self.
Shinomiya Kaguya also listened carefully. This was the first time Amamiya talked about her previous life.
"I was really happy when I got paid for my writing for the first time."
"It's just that because I always write about things I like, the audience is not very large."
"Also because I've been walking on this path, I have less time to contact the outside world."
"I can't remember exactly when I died in my last life."
"Maybe it's because the dead don't know if they are really dead."
"But when I was alive, I knew it very clearly."
"When I opened my eyes, I already had self-awareness, and I also felt cold, and even realized that I was a baby."
It was really a magical cognition and feeling. Amamiya Ren now feels that it is really magical, but also helpless.
"The feeling of panic and helplessness made me feel very uncomfortable. No matter what sound I made, I would cry loudly."
"Until I couldn't make any sound anymore, I could only accept that I was a newborn baby."
"I was raised in an orphanage, and I remember everything."
"The orphanage closed down when I was 10 years old. At 11 years old, I started looking for jobs in places that were between allowed and not allowed, looking for bosses who would sympathize with children."
"I should say that I was lucky and was always treated specially."
"Maybe that village in the countryside is not an unsafe place."
"After I made some money, I started renting a house in the countryside, living, working, and studying at the same time."
"Although my studies were not very good, I still had some foundation in the past, and I could get it back to cope with the subjects at that stage."
"I lived like this until I was 15, the year I got the diary."
"The ordinary me began to come into contact with the extraordinary world."
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Chapter 179 This is what Amamiya thinks
Amamiya Ren seemed to remember the day a year ago when her mind went blank when she saw the diary. She couldn't imagine how an ordinary person who was lucky enough to get a chance to be reborn could be favored by luck again.
"At that time, my mind was just blank. I couldn't imagine how an ordinary person like me could be favored by luck again for the second time."
"So, I didn't use it at first."
"I only have the consciousness of a commoner. I don't think there are any benefits that fall from the sky in the world."
"It took a year to settle down. At that time, I was just in the period of junior high school to high school."
"There was no good high school in that small village, so I came to the big city closer to the small village, Beihua City under Tokyo."
"This is a city where homicides are frequent. Because of this, I have heard that the rent in some places in this city is very cheap."
"It was only after I came to Beihua City and found my current house that I noticed that the school I was promoted to was The school name is Teitan High School. "
"That's when I realized that I was reborn into an incredible world."
"At that time, I was thinking whether there were other worlds involved."
"Then I just searched the Internet and found a lot of things."
"All the surnames and names that had only appeared in the story appeared."
"After confirming the name of Sanqianyuan, I knew that this world was not simple, so I focused on the diary that I had been with me for a year. "
"The world of the god of death is very scary. If you don't have any ability, you might be involved one day, but it is obvious that the trouble caused by the surname of Sanqianyuan is even more serious.
So, in order to protect yourself, you still have to make a choice.
"It turns out that it's not for Miss Mori's story..."
Shinomiya Kaguya remembered that the diary said it was to avoid being involved in the story of the god of death elementary school students, but who knew it was because of Sanqianyuan.
"No matter how much the god of death elementary school students do, there is a limit, but the things behind the debt-ridden housekeeper are a bit big."
"Although it is the future; although it is possible. "
"But if necessary, it is better to get a certain degree of power to fight in advance."
"That was when I had the idea."
Amamiya Ren admitted that it was his uneasiness that made him waver about the diary. He did not think that everything could move in a good direction.
Sometimes, if you have power, you can also control your own destiny.
Of course, it is also possible that the diary controls your destiny.
But this is a choice.
The choice is whether to be controlled by the diary or by the so-called destiny.
In the end, he chose to be controlled by the diary.
"I chose to use the diary without knowing whether there was any problem with it."
"Boldly exposed my position, exposed myself to the maximum extent, and tested the limits of the diary."
"I have read similar novels in my previous life, and I know that sometimes showing too much information is not good for myself."
"But I also know that if I don't show too much information, I may not get the so-called benefits."
"You also know what happened later."
Amamiya Ren paused here.
"Looking back on my life experience, I don't think I have anything special, except for the diary."
"My evaluation of myself is just ordinary, common, not talkative, and lucky."
"Other than that..."
It was really difficult for him to summarize his situation, because he felt that he had summarized himself clearly.
Suddenly, he thought of Sonoko's judgment of himself.
"In this life, maybe my face is okay."
"I personally don't know if there is anything else worth noting about me."
Hearing this, Shinomiya Kaguya also understood why Amemiya said these words to her.
So that's how it is.
So, it was said at the beginning that it was the intersection of fate.
At that time, he didn't mean that, but the diary.
The so-called intertwining of fate means that they will be together for a long time in the future, and there may be some special relationship.
However, this relationship is not absolute, and it may be just for the diary.
At that time, Shinomiya Kaguya thought that Amemiya was talking about the first part, but after hearing what Amemiya said now, she really felt that Amemiya was talking about the latter part.
This is Amemiya's judgment of herself.
Until this moment, Kaguya Shinomiya had a clearer understanding of Amemiya Ren.
From the beginning, he had no idea of having that kind of contact with us.
However, there was an exception.
"Then, what about Miss Suzuki?"
"Sonoko? Yes, Sonoko is an exception."
"Why is Miss Suzuki an exception?"
"Sonoko approached me before she knew about the mystery. At least I believe that she didn't establish a relationship with me because of the diary."
"But, she also pursued me."
"Yes, she pursued me."
Kaguya Shinomiya looked at Amemiya's eyes and didn't refute, but she didn't say anything else, which made her helpless.
It seems that Amemiya is sure that Miss Suzuki did not establish a relationship with him for the so-called mystery.
So is it an exception?
The nature of the interests between me and Sanqianyuan is too big.
In addition, Sanqianyuan is too young. Even if it is, I am afraid it will only be regarded as the kind of love of a child.
So, I went for the mystery... Is that how you judge it?
It turns out that Amemiya judged it at first.
Kaguya Shinomiya took a deep breath.
"I don't deny it."
"When I first saw the contents of the diary, I was more curious."
"But after noon in Dorobiga Paradise, I had the idea of using the diary to get more things."
Amamiya Ren nodded slightly, this was the Kaguya Shinomiya he knew.
"But, Amamiya-san, do you think too little of yourself?"
This made Amamiya Ren slightly stunned.
"Do I...?"
Seeing that this person had no self-awareness at all, Kaguya Shinomiya felt that she had lost all her energy.
This person's self-awareness is really a bit too poor.
"The diary is the diary, and Amamiya is Amamiya."
"Although I went for the diary at first, it doesn't mean that I didn't go for you."
"Huh?"
Kaguya Shinomiya's words completely stunned Amamiya Ren.
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Chapter 180 The "Rights" of the Diary
"Like you said, maybe the diary was the reason for the connection at the beginning, but then it was the intersection of fate."
"Even I know that people's interactions are not entirely driven by interests."
Shinomiya Kaguya also has the right to say this.
"Just like Hayasaka."
"No matter what, she is the one who betrayed me, but this is not what she wants to do, but she is helpless because of her identity and family."
"According to my personality, betrayal is unforgivable."
What she tolerates most is betrayal.
After being betrayed by someone she thought was her friend, she never wants to taste the same thing again.